poem

No sound when the heart breaks

No whisper in the void it makes

Say good-bye and leave, I said

Just me, alone in my empty bed

Don’t even look back to see

If I’m not what you want, then set me free

Just let me heal

Try to pretend it wasn’t real

It wasn’t for you anyway

It was just another day

Try to fill the space with another man

Convince myself I really can

I say I’m fine but I’m not

An empty heart is all I’ve got

I was with one today, but not really here

I think – just hold me until I disappear

You don’t even know me, only what I show you

My body doesn’t really want you, doesn’t matter what you do

And energy doesn’t lie

So you may as well not even try

Sorry to waste your day

And show up in this broken way

Someone else is in my mind

I’m trying to be kind

Tomorrow you will find another one

Someone who isn’t already gone

I will be here building walls

To avoid future falls

Feelings can’t be compromised

No matter how they are disguised

I didn’t plan it – was slow spark smoldering fire

Now defend and protect it with barbed wire

One recognized by the soul

Can’t deny the feeling without paying the toll

No middle, just beginning and an end

No lovely gardens to tend

It will be better some day

When heart doesn’t get in the way