February 2022 – a little bit of everything…

Uh… Okay

So… I feel a little self-conscious talking about what I’m going to share today… but I write for me – not for anyone who may read it… So, I guess I will go ahead and write about what happened today. It’s weird… I’m surprised, a tad bit shocked, maybe a bit confused. I had therapyContinue reading “Uh… Okay”

No Namaste Today

What a crazy week… 18-hour days of non-stop going. I’m not complaining… I have done this for years before, just not lately… When I’m not busy prospecting for new business and doing signings, I’m still on this disaster response and now also have a second one in progress. All day I have been trying toContinue reading “No Namaste Today”

Wild and Free

“All good things are wild and free.” – Henry David Thoreau I was thinking about this in the middle of the night. When I began writing my other blog, Undomesticated Bitch, I was searching for and wanting to get my “wild and free” self, back. Find my voice again… my authentic self… the one thatContinue reading “Wild and Free”

In my element

There was a 40-unit apartment fire over the weekend. I volunteer for a large non-profit humanitarian organization, and we provide disaster relief and assistance. I don’t talk about it often… I just do it. Today during therapy, my phone was blowing up because I am the recovery manager for the county and there was thisContinue reading “In my element”

Partnership thoughts…

I had to be downtown first thing this morning and had to stop for gas on the way… I am always surprised when the car needs gas. I know how ridiculous that sounds. After five years of being without a partner, I should be used to it by now. That is just one of theContinue reading “Partnership thoughts…”

Happy Valentine’s Week

The storm has passed… again. If you have been reading my blog for the last year, you know sometimes I have my bad days… or weeks. My apologies for whining, being grumpy and being no fun at all! It has been (and continues to be) a journey… death, loss, growth, life, and the shit showContinue reading “Happy Valentine’s Week”

What if?

Trying to fall asleep, it occurred to me… What if I am forgetting how you touched me? … barely remember the way your fingers moved in soft circles on my skin. What if I am forgetting the feeling of your domination? … it had become my breath … and now I can’t even remember theContinue reading “What if?”

Bad day

I am having one of those days… one of the ornery ones… I’m just feeling stubborn and a little pissed off with the world. I get this way sometimes… like here https://undomesticatedbitch.wordpress.com/2021/09/27/ornery-with-a-side-of-obstinate/ . Life just is not working out the way I have intended, and it is really pissing me off. I’m mad at people…Continue reading “Bad day”

Burning bridges…

I’m thinking about trust. I realize I approach everyone I meet with open arms and trust… until I don’t. I always give people the benefit of a doubt and in my child-like naïve way, I always expect the best of people… until they show me who they are. Then I’m disappointed in them. Quoting MarkContinue reading “Burning bridges…”

Sleepless in Seattle (Suburbs)

Another mostly sleepless night… but I was too tired to bake or drive… now I have to start my Monday exhausted. I have a pit in my stomach too. I’m not sure why. It’s that “something is wrong” feeling. I do have a lot of stress… I spent the hours I should have been sleepingContinue reading “Sleepless in Seattle (Suburbs)”

Thoughts from the grocery aisle

Maybe there should be a dating app that compares your grocery purchases with potential partner’s? You can tell a lot about a person by their groceries… maybe that would be a good way to find compatibility? Steven M you are not my man… plain cake donuts? That just shows lack of adventurousness… Mint chocolate chipContinue reading “Thoughts from the grocery aisle”

Another one bites the dust

I had a date last night from one of the dating apps. We had been talking off and on for a couple months due to holidays, snow, the rise in Covid and each of us being gone on trips. We agreed to meet at a bar (cough, cough) and he would take me to myContinue reading “Another one bites the dust”

Ride-along

I could not sleep… sometimes I can’t. When I can’t sleep, I don’t fight it… I just do stuff. Thought I might share and take you with me this time… Took a drive… Baked… French macarons Played with tarot… new stuff is coming… Thought about penis size because of a post I saw… how didContinue reading “Ride-along”

Aloneness

I have always been “alone” in many regards. When I was a kid, I was alone a lot. My hippie parents would disappear for days, and I wouldn’t know where they were or when they were coming back. The other kids I knew from school I couldn’t relate to because they had a different existenceContinue reading “Aloneness”