Uh… Okay

So… I feel a little self-conscious talking about what I’m going to share today… but I write for me – not for anyone who may read it… So, I guess I will go ahead and write about what happened today.

It’s weird… I’m surprised, a tad bit shocked, maybe a bit confused. I had therapy today – we went an hour over again… she said she feels guilty charging me and that I don’t need her. She wants to change to touching base once a month or even once a quarter… and mostly only because she wants to nag me to write and hear about my adventures. How weird is that?

She said that I am the most “well-adjusted, capable, healthy, strong and resilient person she has ever met”. She wants me to write – share my life with others. An autobiography. She thinks it will inspire other people. She says the way I handle things is “appropriate and healthy” and “if nothing is broken, nothing needs to be fixed”. Nothing from my past is interfering with my daily life. If something does trigger me, I deal with it in a healthy way. She wishes I would write a book that would teach people resilience and inner strength also. The way I compartmentalize is also appropriate and I have in an “astounding number of tools my toolbox for coping, surviving, and thriving”. She has searched and searched for ways to be of use to me and she can’t really find any. There is no need to dig up traumas from the past just to do it when I am so highly functioning and healthy.

Everyone I know in therapy has been there for years… or decades. I feel like I enrolled in an honors class, was given the final – passed – and have been dismissed.  I’m a little shocked… She would like to be a “beta” reader as I write. I guess it’s my final homework assignment… She says my life is fascinating and she finds me very interesting and can’t wait to read it.

I have never heard of someone’s therapy experience going this way.

Published by wayward yoga girl

A complex creation that chooses to be quite simple - LOL. I earnestly try to approach life with unconditional love and non-judgement... but I'm only human and perfectly imperfect :)

8 thoughts on “Uh… Okay

  1. Well could be good thing Adrienne ? Yes

    As it is known those of us who gone through walks of hell and ride the constant roller coaster decipher further deeper meaning of their RAW YOU

    Let me asked you this what does your gut tell you do think she was genuine ? or trying to phased you out ?

    Only you know that answer I do see that you have good grasp on what makes you tick I can that for many that are searching endlessly to find get so close yet so far.

    There is no one size fits all you know this as well as I do take pride and be proud to you acknowledge the mountains you have climbed and how many times it has tried to put massive divides in your way to thrashed you back down to the base.

    I am asked all the time and get told that I am not like anyone else they know the way how interpret and my cerebral mindset to life

    I am well aware as the my writing be tracks or segments reflect as so unlike many my life has been one where I know first hand what it means to be thrashed inside the belly of hell forced walked through the flames.

    Always be true to yourself and know YOU matter always Adrienne

    Primal R.e.p.r

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  2. Maybe writing about yourself can help find whatever you need.

    This reminds me of when I was part of this taekwondo club back in university. I was just a black belt there and that is it. However, a few times I have been called to teach class in my instructor’s absence and even taught some of the members on an individual basis. Teaching taekwondo to others somehow improved my mastery and knowledge of the art in return.

    Hopefully something similar likes this happens to you.

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