I have made some choices in the last week… One of which is to go to Europe… Today I began planning out my trip 🙂 I will be going to France, Italy and Greece in a couple months. Next Spring I will go to Ireland, Scotland, England and Denmark.
I am back to the gym daily… I was only able to go a few times when Piper was sick. It feels good to be back in the groove there. And I am taking up space in the “off limits” area (free weights) like nobody’s business… and I now have two of my adult daughters doing the same thing in their respective gyms – LOL.
Dating… decided to only date for fun. Not looking for a relationship anymore. I am totally okay alone – on my own – unpartnered. I like doing what I want to, when I want to. I did have to look something up today. Someone indicated I was “thick”, the guy said “I like thick girls”, which I assumed meant fat. I felt shitty for a couple days. Women are always comparing themselves to media projected images of what we are supposed to look like, and we rarely can make ourselves look that way and I have been curvy since I was 12! Today I looked up “thick” in the Urban Dictionary. It does not mean “fat”.
I realized this week, when I picked up a check, how much I really make per hour at my primary career… which of course got fucked up when Covid began, and I’ve been waiting for it to go back to “normal”… but I am reminded I can’t waste time with bullshit side jobs any more… I have to focus on my primary career and finding new ways to get business in that career. No side job on the planet pays $2k an hour and I deserve to get back to a nice life again… the kind I had before the death of my guy, and taking care of my 94 year old grandma, and a pandemic. Time to get back to my real job… even if it means adapting to find new sources of business.