Work has been so busy… I am not complaining, just observing. Lots of 15-hour days. While in the car, instead of listening to music, I am in a listen to talking phase. I do this sometimes – I like to learn new things or look at things from a different perspective. Ted talks, random people I follow on YouTube or podcasts. This creates a lot of random things floating around in my brain as “half-thoughts” – no time to focus in depth… just ponder for a moment and allow it to sit in there…
This blog post may turn out to be a brain dump of some random things to come back to later – LOL. One of which, is thought about my business partner. I was in his family for a very long time (married to his brother for 24 years). Why on earth, after breaking free from those people and cycles, have I put myself back there? Or allowed my self to be energetically drawn back into the edge of them and their lives?
My ex died a few years after our divorce. He was exhausting… I tried so hard… his family is still exhausting. I used to have conversations with his father and tried to help him evolve and see things from another perspective… I used to joke with him that he could “get it” in this lifetime or maybe be reincarnated as a black lesbian woman next time to help him see things differently – LOL. Maybe…just maybe… I have an obligation of some sort to try and help the people I interact with to be a better version of themselves? Not that I am perfect – I’m far from it… but maybe that’s why we cross paths? To learn something from each other. I know it has taught me extreme patience.
I’m still surprised I have allowed myself to become entangled in some way again… because of the BP (business partner). I do know I help him… I help him be a better husband and father by helping him see some things differently sometimes. I also know I am having another effect on him and his judgmental mindset. He started to make a comment the other day with regard to someone based on their race and stopped himself. He said “never mind” mid-sentence followed by “I don’t need a lecture right now” – which tells me he is slowly internalizing and comprehending a few things.
I have been thinking a lot about happiness. I wrote a whole book (albeit a little one) about happiness in 2019, so it seems I always have a lot to say about the subject. I also participated a couple years ago in Harvard’s “A Course in Happiness”. To further elaborate on my thoughts about the subject; I have come to understand happiness is a balance between the soul and the brain. They need to be in alignment. You can’t let the brain get in the way… you have to let your soul take the lead but have a nice balance. You really have to “feel” your way through life… and be true to your soul. And decide you want to be happy… and take chances… and look for the love in everything… I will stop here – no need to write the book again.
Energetically, there is a lot going on right now. The way the planets are aligned, retrogrades, shifts, etc. are creating an opportunity energetically through the end of the year. This is a great time to make decisions about what you want to create in your life… re-design and manifest. Someone I listened to indicated this particular energy opportunity won’t be back until 2027… seize the day… get clear… make some decisions. I will be doing that… getting more clear. I have felt this energy a lot the last month or two… I’m just flowing with it.
Speaking of energy, I have a client I recently started working with who also feels energy the way I do. It’s actually kind of funny – we went out looking at houses together all weekend and had the exact same reactions to each house… some we instantly knew there were anger issues, addiction issues, etc. Usually, I’m the only one who knows immediately what the energy is. It was really cool we could compare notes and see we both felt and knew the same things. It’s funny because you can go into a clean house that looks “normal” and nice and “feel” how it really is. We will stay friends after she buys a house. I like her. She’s a police officer and although they are trained to spot inconsistencies or changes in behavior, if you know energy you can feel it. We laughed about how you just “know” when someone isn’t telling the truth or the “whole” truth sometimes without training or those telltale signs they teach. Because I am a Pollyanna, I always discount those “knowing feelings” and try to give people the benefit of a doubt… but in my core, I always know… I’m working on trusting my knowing more and giving less leeway – but that has been one of my life lessons maybe.
I do believe everything happens for a reason. I am thankful for the people that come into and through my life.
I have so many thoughts to share but I have to get back to work – my “To do” list is long… I will have to continue this later. I have read some blog posts I need to comment on also but haven’t had time. Some fellow bloggers are on their own journeys that are challenging – I want to offer love and support. I do it energetically even if I don’t have time to type them something… Know that you are supported by me. I can’t believe it’s about to be November. Time is going so fast.