Confused

I’m feeling confused.

I’ve been getting to know someone new… Now granted, interpersonal relationships are not my forte… I show up – I just “be me” … I’m open, honest… have been known to over-share or not filter what I say – that is a flaw I have. This person I’m getting to know keeps saying things like “You appear to be too good to be true”, “when am I going to see the “real” you?” and “you seem to be the “whole package” – what’s the catch?”

I just don’t even know how to respond… I don’t understand.

Is it possible that at times people become so jaded by their life they can’t take someone at face value? Someone who doesn’t pretend to be something they aren’t. This is me. I’m human. I have made monumental errors in life (I own them) … I’ve also done some good things. I always try my best… and I’m honest.

The fact they doubt me so much, does that mean they aren’t being “real” with me? Why can’t people just be who they are? I have been working crazy long hours so maybe my judgement is off. It seems like if people think you aren’t who you appear to be that maybe they aren’t who they appear to be and that’s why they think that? This feels like a high schoolish situation I should have mastered by now.

Thank goodness for my drive-by FB for stress relief. I don’t know how long I will keep seeing him… I need a real relationship. One that contributes to thriving.

I had to set some hard boundaries with my business partner this week. I must have balance and a certain amount of control in my own life… long term, that may end the partnership. If it does, that’s okay.

On a side note, the “six and a half weeks” guy from last year continues to randomly text me. I have not blocked him in case I need a restraining order and I need proof of what he says… I just do not respond. Now I have a Facebook friend request from him too. I’m confused by this also. Why doesn’t he just go away?

Published by wayward yoga girl

A complex creation that chooses to be quite simple - LOL. I earnestly try to approach life with unconditional love and non-judgement... but I'm only human and perfectly imperfect :)

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