Last week I was reading a blog that I follow. The author went through a shocking breakup around Christmas that really left her devasted. I am watching the rise and fall of her recovery and the process of her finding herself again. It totally caught her off guard – which breaks my heart. I empathizeContinue reading “Shine like the sun”
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Sunday thoughts
When I was cozy in bed this morning, all snuggled down in my feather pillows and feather blanket, my phone buzzed. I opened the incoming text “I didn’t do anything wrong!” It took me a number of seconds to get my brain straight and know who this was. It was momentarily jarring. Michael. I hadContinue reading “Sunday thoughts”
Fish, unknown whispers, and changes
Sometimes… often…. okay always… the last 5 years I listen to things while I sleep. That happens when your guy dies, I guess… For about 3 or 4 years it was ocean sounds through Alexa. Then I decided to switch it to rain since I don’t live at the beach anymore. (Side note – recentlyContinue reading “Fish, unknown whispers, and changes”
Thoughts about resilience
One of the benefits of being self-employed is the ability to do random things you feel like doing… today I spent a few hours at a beach. I love the ocean… the tides were extra low today. While I was walking up and down the coastline, I did a lot of thinking… One of theContinue reading “Thoughts about resilience”
In the wild…
I am no longer on any of the dating apps. If you have been reading this blog for a while, you know I have been on and off them the last year to year and a half. I know they work for some people, and almost did for me with a couple of people –Continue reading “In the wild…”
New Chapter
I have made some choices in the last week… One of which is to go to Europe… Today I began planning out my trip 🙂 I will be going to France, Italy and Greece in a couple months. Next Spring I will go to Ireland, Scotland, England and Denmark. I am back to the gymContinue reading “New Chapter”
Another new normal
My dog died yesterday. Although her inner fight made her walk again, run again and even play again in the last two weeks, her liver didn’t have the same determination. She was the final piece of the life I had with Robert… Maybe dogs are here to remind us of what unconditional love looks like.Continue reading “Another new normal”
What’s in a name?
The year I didn’t exist… by my name anyway. My parents had moved to Burbank, California after leaving the house in Topanga Canyon where the basement was inhabited by some who would become to be known as Manson Family followers, friends, and “family” members… Not all of them lived there, only about five with othersContinue reading “What’s in a name?”
I’m defective
A few days ago, I started having stabbing, zinging pain in my left leg and hip… then some in my left elbow too. For a minute I had to think about if I was picking up my dog’s issues and feeling her since she is having neurological issues on her left side. As an empath,Continue reading “I’m defective”
Can you hear me?
When the world shifted on its axis two plus years ago with the worldwide pandemic, the way people interact with one another changed. I think it had already begun, but the pandemic sped it up. We as a society are so disconnected… Thanks to texting, tweeting, social media posting, etc. we have talked “at” eachContinue reading “Can you hear me?”
Observations on a Friday Morning
Must be something about being born on July 22nd… right now my dog is reminding me a lot of myself (we were both born on that day). She is fucking relentless. Persistent as fuck… it’s like something clicked in her brain and she knows she needs to get control of her limbs again. Every hourContinue reading “Observations on a Friday Morning”
Mayday
Mercury in retrograde, lunar eclipse, … and the sun, moon and Saturn creating a “harsh T-square” in the sky… it’s a fucked-up energy trifecta. I was already having a funky week, then it got worse. Piper is my dog… she was born in a trailer park and taken away from her mom too young. WhenContinue reading “Mayday”
Rainy days and Mondays
I am feeling melancholy today. There is no one reason… when I feel this way, I do stuff. I mowed the lawn (and the neighbor’s lawn too… didn’t want to make a line between our houses like some sort of selfish dick). I cooked… a lot. It’s what I do when I feel like IContinue reading “Rainy days and Mondays”
The Zen in Letting Go
It occurs to me this has been a life lesson for me. The art of letting go… of non-attachment. If we sign up to learn specific things in a lifetime, I took a crash course in this subject this lifetime. The Buddhist concept of “non-attachment” is about not being attached to outcomes and “things”. SomeContinue reading “The Zen in Letting Go”
Insomnia, rumination & action
I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn’t go back to sleep. Instead of fighting with myself, I decided to watch a movie. I love movies… Some I will watch periodically even though I’ve seen them many times because they are comforting and almost like an old friend… and I have missedContinue reading “Insomnia, rumination & action”
In the “off limits” area
I was recently taught how to use free weights. It really does feel like a better workout than using the machines. You use so many muscles making microscopic shifts to keep balance and posture rather than sitting in a machine that just restricts and focuses your workout to a couple of specific muscles. I’ve alreadyContinue reading “In the “off limits” area”
Cape optional…
I’ve spent some time working for my ex-brother-in-law lately. Of all my ex-husband’s siblings, I do like this one the best… and he and his wife were and are the only ones who still talk to me. Time spent with them always reminds me of so many things though… Ed calls me in a fitContinue reading “Cape optional…”
Sunday morning…
I am peopled out today… but I have to work today anyway. It has been a long week… while still recovering from the sinus infection, I have worked three different jobs, begun a new fitness routine, spent the last day with a child in tow and see no day off in the foreseeable future. It’sContinue reading “Sunday morning…”
Just another day on this spinning ball
I am sick today. I admit it… I am actually “sick”, not just allergies. Prior to the pandemic, I got sick maybe once a year. One big inconvenient cold… once a year. During the pandemic, everyone was on high alert – every sneeze, every sniffle, came with the question “Is it COVID?”. Since we wereContinue reading “Just another day on this spinning ball”
Shaken, not stirred
Working out is boring. There I said it… Here are my thoughts in the gym yesterday. The most boring part is the treadmill I always start with. There are about 20 TVs mounted to watch – but I just put my airpods in and listen to my music. I try to go when the gymContinue reading “Shaken, not stirred”
Random thoughts for today
The weather has been so weird. It is sunny, then hailing, then raining, then snowing – all within 15 minutes. It’s been happening for days – it makes it very hard to know how to dress for the day! It’s kind of like an outward expression of me lately… I have become a —- (IContinue reading “Random thoughts for today”
Hi. My name is Wayward Yoga Girl.
I’ve been called out on something… so time to dive deep again. I keep thinking I’m done working on this, but here we go again. I guess becoming “healthy” or “healed” may be an on-going process… there are so many layers to the onion. The issue again is abandonment. I ask myself “Why would IContinue reading “Hi. My name is Wayward Yoga Girl.”
Reminder not to do dumb stuff
So… I am kind of a dork. People who know me, know this. But it sure is embarrassing to be caught being one by other people – who don’t know me… I have been working long hours so far this week, so I thought since the sun was out, today I would do some yardworkContinue reading “Reminder not to do dumb stuff”
Family Dinner
Last night I had “family dinner” with my adult children and their partners. We have vowed to make this a more regular thing… I adore my girls. They are so much fun. We laugh so hard our stomachs hurt and tears run down our faces, and we threaten to pee our pants. The two olderContinue reading “Family Dinner”
Clarity (or momentarily absofuckinglutely crazy)
Last night before going to sleep I set an intention. I wanted communication or guidance from my guides while I slept (I did request it with a “please” so as to not sound demanding – LOL). I slept very deeply for 11 hours… I don’t remember any dreams… or anything at all. But I wokeContinue reading “Clarity (or momentarily absofuckinglutely crazy)”
Swearing, cooking and shining
I wanted to share a couple things from my email this morning before I head to the gym (yes, reading 400+ emails and working out this morning… all sorts of diversions to avoid sitting down to focus on taxes – LOL). The first – an email I get from authors of a cookbook. I loveContinue reading “Swearing, cooking and shining”
Unpacking
I have a lot to unpack here today (both mentally and physically). I have been out of town… it was a girl’s trip – it was fun… but I am also a person who requires alone time (probably too much of it) so I have a level of internal exhaustion. Plus being around a lotContinue reading “Unpacking”
Intimate strangers
In my real life, very few people know about my blog. It is a very private journey. I make a choice to make it public on the off chance something in it helps another person in some way, … but rarely invite someone from “real life” to have access. Being that totally open and vulnerableContinue reading “Intimate strangers”
Do you hear the music?
Philosopher Alan Watts explains that there is a danger in thinking life is a journey, some sort of a pilgrimage with a purpose at the end. Life is to be lived along the way… in the same way that music is to be enjoyed. If music were only about endings, composers would only write finales,Continue reading “Do you hear the music?”
Weird week…
My week was much different than I anticipated. My youngest daughter, who is 30, is living with me for now. Her partner, Julia, also lives here. Julia is technically married to someone else – a Brazilian man. Welcome to 2022 – where families and relationships look different… The husband (Lohan) was accused of “Rape” ofContinue reading “Weird week…”
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