In my real life, very few people know about my blog. It is a very private journey. I make a choice to make it public on the off chance something in it helps another person in some way, … but rarely invite someone from “real life” to have access. Being that totally open and vulnerableContinue reading “Intimate strangers”
Author Archives: wayward yoga girl
Do you hear the music?
Philosopher Alan Watts explains that there is a danger in thinking life is a journey, some sort of a pilgrimage with a purpose at the end. Life is to be lived along the way… in the same way that music is to be enjoyed. If music were only about endings, composers would only write finales,Continue reading “Do you hear the music?”
Weird week…
My week was much different than I anticipated. My youngest daughter, who is 30, is living with me for now. Her partner, Julia, also lives here. Julia is technically married to someone else – a Brazilian man. Welcome to 2022 – where families and relationships look different… The husband (Lohan) was accused of “Rape” ofContinue reading “Weird week…”
Conflict Resolution
I decided to cancel today and tonight’s social commitments and go to Olympus Spa – or the “naked lady spa” as my daughters refer to it. I spent time sitting in heated water with other naked women, in silence. Spent time in the meditation room. And the steam room. And the salt room. Had someContinue reading “Conflict Resolution”
Deeply conflicted
I have an internal conflict today, so I have to spew it all out on virtual paper to sort it out. The situation is… I have had feelings for someone for quite a while. I get them under control, stifled… then they come back. It’s all in my own mind. I know that it is.Continue reading “Deeply conflicted”
Silly shenanigans ~
I am a little goofy today, so I apologize in advance… I had to drive all the way to Kitsap Peninsula North today to get a sign and a box off a listing (Yes folks, momma’s getting paid! Wahoo!). On the way I took some pictures I always want to take on this route, becauseContinue reading “Silly shenanigans ~”
Today’s playlist
These songs are on repeat in my mind today (and my car, and the house…). The lyrics and melodies are really speaking to me. I keep finding myself dancing and singing today. Thought I would share them.
Dazed and Confused
I had a very busy, but productive week. The current response operations are coming to a close, and I’m feeling pretty damn optimistic about work. Last night, after being busy for 14 hours straight, it occurred to me that although I have decided not to go looking for love – it can’t find me ifContinue reading “Dazed and Confused”
Uh… Okay
So… I feel a little self-conscious talking about what I’m going to share today… but I write for me – not for anyone who may read it… So, I guess I will go ahead and write about what happened today. It’s weird… I’m surprised, a tad bit shocked, maybe a bit confused. I had therapyContinue reading “Uh… Okay”
No Namaste Today
What a crazy week… 18-hour days of non-stop going. I’m not complaining… I have done this for years before, just not lately… When I’m not busy prospecting for new business and doing signings, I’m still on this disaster response and now also have a second one in progress. All day I have been trying toContinue reading “No Namaste Today”
Wild and Free
“All good things are wild and free.” – Henry David Thoreau I was thinking about this in the middle of the night. When I began writing my other blog, Undomesticated Bitch, I was searching for and wanting to get my “wild and free” self, back. Find my voice again… my authentic self… the one thatContinue reading “Wild and Free”
In my element
There was a 40-unit apartment fire over the weekend. I volunteer for a large non-profit humanitarian organization, and we provide disaster relief and assistance. I don’t talk about it often… I just do it. Today during therapy, my phone was blowing up because I am the recovery manager for the county and there was thisContinue reading “In my element”
Partnership thoughts…
I had to be downtown first thing this morning and had to stop for gas on the way… I am always surprised when the car needs gas. I know how ridiculous that sounds. After five years of being without a partner, I should be used to it by now. That is just one of theContinue reading “Partnership thoughts…”
Happy Valentine’s Week
The storm has passed… again. If you have been reading my blog for the last year, you know sometimes I have my bad days… or weeks. My apologies for whining, being grumpy and being no fun at all! It has been (and continues to be) a journey… death, loss, growth, life, and the shit showContinue reading “Happy Valentine’s Week”
What if?
Trying to fall asleep, it occurred to me… What if I am forgetting how you touched me? … barely remember the way your fingers moved in soft circles on my skin. What if I am forgetting the feeling of your domination? … it had become my breath … and now I can’t even remember theContinue reading “What if?”
Bad day
I am having one of those days… one of the ornery ones… I’m just feeling stubborn and a little pissed off with the world. I get this way sometimes… like here https://undomesticatedbitch.wordpress.com/2021/09/27/ornery-with-a-side-of-obstinate/ . Life just is not working out the way I have intended, and it is really pissing me off. I’m mad at people…Continue reading “Bad day”
Burning bridges…
I’m thinking about trust. I realize I approach everyone I meet with open arms and trust… until I don’t. I always give people the benefit of a doubt and in my child-like naïve way, I always expect the best of people… until they show me who they are. Then I’m disappointed in them. Quoting MarkContinue reading “Burning bridges…”
Sleepless in Seattle (Suburbs)
Another mostly sleepless night… but I was too tired to bake or drive… now I have to start my Monday exhausted. I have a pit in my stomach too. I’m not sure why. It’s that “something is wrong” feeling. I do have a lot of stress… I spent the hours I should have been sleepingContinue reading “Sleepless in Seattle (Suburbs)”
Thoughts from the grocery aisle
Maybe there should be a dating app that compares your grocery purchases with potential partner’s? You can tell a lot about a person by their groceries… maybe that would be a good way to find compatibility? Steven M you are not my man… plain cake donuts? That just shows lack of adventurousness… Mint chocolate chipContinue reading “Thoughts from the grocery aisle”
Another one bites the dust
I had a date last night from one of the dating apps. We had been talking off and on for a couple months due to holidays, snow, the rise in Covid and each of us being gone on trips. We agreed to meet at a bar (cough, cough) and he would take me to myContinue reading “Another one bites the dust”
Ride-along
I could not sleep… sometimes I can’t. When I can’t sleep, I don’t fight it… I just do stuff. Thought I might share and take you with me this time… Took a drive… Baked… French macarons Played with tarot… new stuff is coming… Thought about penis size because of a post I saw… how didContinue reading “Ride-along”
Aloneness
I have always been “alone” in many regards. When I was a kid, I was alone a lot. My hippie parents would disappear for days, and I wouldn’t know where they were or when they were coming back. The other kids I knew from school I couldn’t relate to because they had a different existenceContinue reading “Aloneness”
Relationships
Someone said something to me a little while back that keeps coming back to haunt me. They basically indicated being single is better than being in a committed relationship because you won’t ever feel stuck waking up next to someone you don’t like anymore. This caught me off guard. I wanted to shout, “You areContinue reading “Relationships”
Words
Last night, sitting in the Metropolitan Market parking lot, I was thinking about words… First, I should explain why I was in the parking lot. I discovered as an Instacart shopper, the app shows orders closest to your physical location and wealthy people tip better. Met Market is an upscale Trader Joe’s… so that isContinue reading “Words”
January update
You can’t keep picking apples off a tree hoping to find a peach. You can’t teach a grown man how to be positively dominant or a DD if he isn’t wired that way. You would think that I am old enough to know these things. The comet came back around again…once again, I swear thisContinue reading “January update”
Just one more moment
I woke up this morning thinking about the time I ended up in the Salish Sea with no life jacket. The ocean water off the San Juan Islands in Washington is very, very cold… even in the middle of summer. My middle daughter and I ended up unexpectedly in the water on a boating tripContinue reading “Just one more moment”
A not hot mess
I am a fucking disaster… I should wrap my entire house, my car and myself with caution tape so people will be warned to stay away. I didn’t sleep well again… so I’m extra cranky. Just read someone else’s blog today… this one is covered in caution tape warning you to stay away. Of course,Continue reading “A not hot mess”
Prince Charming… you are late
I’m awake at 4am… It’s been a minute since I was awake in the middle the night like this… I think Disney did not contribute to my overall wellness as a female. Growing up with the “Wonderful World of Disney” movies made me think there would someday be a prince (or “my” prince) coming alongContinue reading “Prince Charming… you are late”
Random mind doodles~~
Today I learned in therapy, I am not an INTJ (Myers-Briggs personality type). I have found out I am actually an INFJ. I had to disconnect from the “feeling” part of things and overcompensated on purpose going to “thinking” and logic to survive. When I read about the INFJ personality, it makes absolute perfect senseContinue reading “Random mind doodles~~”
Not one size fits all…
Dominant men. That’s what is on my mind. Firstly, as I have mentioned in this blog far too many times, it is hard to find one. While snowed in and alone over the holidays, I did manage to find a couple of “Doms” to talk to through dating sites. There are so many different expressionsContinue reading “Not one size fits all…”
a little bit of everything... 