I wrote a song while I was driving today. I don’t write music, so you’ll have to make up your own tune I guess – LOL. Below are the lyrics… thank goodness for “notes” on the iphone and talk (or sing) to type ability or I would have had to pull over into a snowbankContinue reading “Almost had something…”
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New Year
Welcome in 2022. I’m the same girl as yesterday… in the same place as yesterday… still riding along for another trip around the sun… let’s make it a good one. I’m going to make sandwiches for homeless people today and deliver them to remind them (just in my weird way) although it’s cold and snowyContinue reading “New Year”
What day is it?
Prepare for random rambling about all sorts of things. I have no one to talk to, so you are elected. Our street has not been plowed or sanded. I did make it out briefly yesterday to take the girls to get their car from Les Schwab. It had to be towed for a flat fix.Continue reading “What day is it?”
Another snow day
I am still snowed in… I hadn’t planned to be snowed in. I borrowed a shovel and unburied my driveway and walkway today. I remember we used to have a snow shovel. I think I gave it away during a move. I distinctly remember saying “I will not need this. If it snows, I willContinue reading “Another snow day”
Christmas is over
I survived Christmas. Robert loved Christmas. He decorated like crazy…every inch of the house inside and out. Christmas movies every day from Thanksgiving to New Years. When I was a kid, Christmas was unpredictable and often a disappointment. Some years I would come home from school or wake up in the morning to find theContinue reading “Christmas is over”
Fuck fear
I woke up this morning thinking about fear. Just before waking up, I was having a dream. I don’t remember the details… all I remember is the feeling of fear in the pit of my stomach. I was momentarily confused, thinking “what is this familiar feeling?” I said to whomever was in my dream, “OhContinue reading “Fuck fear”
… still Thursday
Okay I have been “productive” enough for today. I showered and got dressed. In my “lumberjack” outfit again… that’s what my date called it the other night… I kind of took a little bit of offense. I wear black all the time. I have 36 pair of black leggings, half dozen black slacks, black jeans,Continue reading “… still Thursday”
Yes, it’s Thursday… all day
This morning I was woken up earlier than usual… the thing is, not the usual way. Usually I get up when my alarm goes off, or I just wake up or the dog needs to go out. Today, my dog and I were sleeping soundly then all of a sudden she jumped out of bedContinue reading “Yes, it’s Thursday… all day”
Wrapping up the year…
I have been reflecting on all that has transpired the last year… particularly when it comes to personal growth – which is positive. I am starting therapy next week to make sure I continue to process stuff from the past fully and can move forward as the mentally healthiest version of myself possible and haveContinue reading “Wrapping up the year…”
Home alone-ish
Here I was making my bed today… naked… bedroom door open… home alone. I glance up and I see Robert (my dead fiancé) coming up the last few stairs and stopping at the top just outside my bedroom double doors. Just standing there… in his hang out at home on a weekend t-shirt and shortsContinue reading “Home alone-ish”
Prepping…
I have finally found a therapist…they seem to check all the boxes for what I might consider to be a smart and well-rounded person who might be able to work with me. They even have at least a cursory understanding of meta-physical things and are not religious (I do not need to be saved orContinue reading “Prepping…”
Untitled
Mr. Rogers did not adequately prepare me for the people in my neighborhood. Maybe he lived in a better one than I do. I only watched the show when I was 5 and 6 – maybe he covered more later, and I missed it. It used to make me so sad when he took hisContinue reading “Untitled”
My meandering mind
Work has been really slow. I’ve been watching various workshops online for the last week. Nothing interesting really to report or document…I am struggling. Most of my struggle I think is just the season…and being alone (unpartnered). I am starting to go through the entire house, every closet and every cupboard – to pare downContinue reading “My meandering mind”
Shift in the Matrix
I’m going to veer off the normal path today…try to put judgement aside and move forward with an open mind. We as a planet are experiencing a mass “awakening” spiritually. Our entire world is having a shift in consciousness. Don’t get me wrong…there are still plenty who are “asleep”, but right now there are moreContinue reading “Shift in the Matrix”
Sex and Quizzes
I need to complain for a moment. Not everyone is a good fuck. Even fewer are a great fuck. I’m annoyed…I try to be discerning before even connecting with someone in person. My most recent sex date has been in the sex positive and kink communities for years…decades…so I even made him get tested forContinue reading “Sex and Quizzes”
My favorite conspiracy theory is everything is going to be okay…
I was disappointed not to hear from someone I care about with a text on Thanksgiving…I had asked him not to text me anymore so it’s my own fault. I just wanted him to anyway. But he doesn’t truly care about me so it’s just as well he didn’t. I’ve spent some time researching whyContinue reading “My favorite conspiracy theory is everything is going to be okay…”
Modern Love Update
Lunch was just lunch. I am showing restraint…I really don’t want to be involved with a married man – even if their marriage is open. I have realized there are men who only sign up for free dating sites or very cheap sites or say in their profile “I can’t see likes – you haveContinue reading “Modern Love Update”
My version of Modern Love
I have spent the last 2 ½ days in bed. I’m out of it now…but I want to go back. I showered and put on clothes…now I’m exhausted. I binge-watched things on Prime…including “Fleabag” and “Modern Love” … a movie called “Bound”…another movie called “The Voyeurs”. It occurs to me this morning my daughter probablyContinue reading “My version of Modern Love”
I’m fine…sort of
Just sharing random stuff in my brain today… if you stopped in looking for inspiration here, you won’t find it right now. There is no love and light in this post…feel free to move along. I need to de-tox from social media. I would rather that I pick up a book or take a yogaContinue reading “I’m fine…sort of”
Comet dust and lust…
A “nova”” when it comes to dating, is when you meet someone and there is an initial attraction…the two of you shine brightly for a moment, then fade away and fizzle out quickly (usually a one night thing)…it was never meant to be anything more and you both instinctively know it. A “comet” in datingContinue reading “Comet dust and lust…”
Masculine energy
I have noticed this year, while out in the dating wild… a shift in men. Maybe it has been there for a long time, but I was unaware because I wasn’t out there meeting them. I have blogged about this before…but I’m thinking about it again. Men, or many of them it seems, have beenContinue reading “Masculine energy”
~It’s all good~
I’m done wallowing and creating melancholy doodles. Granted – those things have purpose and sometimes you have to take some time and “feel” your feelings and where you “are” at a given moment. I really hate that chaotic, disconnected, fragmented feeling of being out of alignment. Meditation cures everything… and doing the energy work IContinue reading “~It’s all good~”
Doodles
Trying my best to translate…
I’ve been so emotional this week…so much energy coming at me and through me…is it the geomagnetic storms or something else? Today especially…I woke up with energy coursing through all my chakras, then a feeling of calm…then more waves of energy. I can’t really put my finger on where its coming from. I know whatContinue reading “Trying my best to translate…”
Art Festival
The art festival was quite a success. I was really happy about the Covid protocol that was in place also… The last week has been energetically exhausting…so I don’t have much to say, but here are some pictures for you. There were many other activities taking place at the festival as well…aerial bondage, body painting,Continue reading “Art Festival”
poem
No sound when the heart breaks No whisper in the void it makes Say good-bye and leave, I said Just me, alone in my empty bed Don’t even look back to see If I’m not what you want, then set me free Just let me heal Try to pretend it wasn’t real It wasn’t forContinue reading “poem”
Attachment & Updated Dating Lexicon
Looking for love or connection and coming up empty is never a good feeling. When you feel attraction for someone, sometimes it is based on unhealthy things. What I mean is…say your childhood created some unconscious ideas about what a relationship or partner is supposed to look like or feel like (this happens with everyoneContinue reading “Attachment & Updated Dating Lexicon”
Sex and Ice Cream
These are two of my favorite things. I crave sex more often than ice cream but there is something very sensual about ice cream…and sometimes you just need to cuddle up with some. Of course, there is the “vanilla” joke…I am definitely a “mix in” girl…and I don’t like just one kind – I likeContinue reading “Sex and Ice Cream”
Beautiful chaos~
I had a really enlightening day. I need to “Kerouac” it out…so hang in there with my stream of consciousness rambling please or move on to better reading if you’d like. I have realized that ever since I really let go of the grief I was carrying for years over the death of my partner,Continue reading “Beautiful chaos~”
Sensory overload
Today I began learning to be an art docent for the erotic arts festival. My head is now swimming with concepts, art, and artists. I definitely have sensory overload at the moment and I have so much studying to do about the artists to be able to answer questions in an effective way…but first maybeContinue reading “Sensory overload”
a little bit of everything... 