A while back I announced (in my blog and to the Universe in general) that if something isn’t a “Fuck Yes!” then it’s a “No”. I trust that everything is always working out for me if I just flow with the energy… Admittedly, I did forget that for a while…. Lots of things in lifeContinue reading “Take a Leap”
Category Archives: Life
Shine like the sun
Last week I was reading a blog that I follow. The author went through a shocking breakup around Christmas that really left her devasted. I am watching the rise and fall of her recovery and the process of her finding herself again. It totally caught her off guard – which breaks my heart. I empathizeContinue reading “Shine like the sun”
Sunday thoughts
When I was cozy in bed this morning, all snuggled down in my feather pillows and feather blanket, my phone buzzed. I opened the incoming text “I didn’t do anything wrong!” It took me a number of seconds to get my brain straight and know who this was. It was momentarily jarring. Michael. I hadContinue reading “Sunday thoughts”
Fish, unknown whispers, and changes
Sometimes… often…. okay always… the last 5 years I listen to things while I sleep. That happens when your guy dies, I guess… For about 3 or 4 years it was ocean sounds through Alexa. Then I decided to switch it to rain since I don’t live at the beach anymore. (Side note – recentlyContinue reading “Fish, unknown whispers, and changes”
Thoughts about resilience
One of the benefits of being self-employed is the ability to do random things you feel like doing… today I spent a few hours at a beach. I love the ocean… the tides were extra low today. While I was walking up and down the coastline, I did a lot of thinking… One of theContinue reading “Thoughts about resilience”
In the wild…
I am no longer on any of the dating apps. If you have been reading this blog for a while, you know I have been on and off them the last year to year and a half. I know they work for some people, and almost did for me with a couple of people –Continue reading “In the wild…”
Observations on a Friday Morning
Must be something about being born on July 22nd… right now my dog is reminding me a lot of myself (we were both born on that day). She is fucking relentless. Persistent as fuck… it’s like something clicked in her brain and she knows she needs to get control of her limbs again. Every hourContinue reading “Observations on a Friday Morning”
Just another day on this spinning ball
I am sick today. I admit it… I am actually “sick”, not just allergies. Prior to the pandemic, I got sick maybe once a year. One big inconvenient cold… once a year. During the pandemic, everyone was on high alert – every sneeze, every sniffle, came with the question “Is it COVID?”. Since we wereContinue reading “Just another day on this spinning ball”
Shaken, not stirred
Working out is boring. There I said it… Here are my thoughts in the gym yesterday. The most boring part is the treadmill I always start with. There are about 20 TVs mounted to watch – but I just put my airpods in and listen to my music. I try to go when the gymContinue reading “Shaken, not stirred”
Random thoughts for today
The weather has been so weird. It is sunny, then hailing, then raining, then snowing – all within 15 minutes. It’s been happening for days – it makes it very hard to know how to dress for the day! It’s kind of like an outward expression of me lately… I have become a —- (IContinue reading “Random thoughts for today”
Hi. My name is Wayward Yoga Girl.
I’ve been called out on something… so time to dive deep again. I keep thinking I’m done working on this, but here we go again. I guess becoming “healthy” or “healed” may be an on-going process… there are so many layers to the onion. The issue again is abandonment. I ask myself “Why would IContinue reading “Hi. My name is Wayward Yoga Girl.”
Reminder not to do dumb stuff
So… I am kind of a dork. People who know me, know this. But it sure is embarrassing to be caught being one by other people – who don’t know me… I have been working long hours so far this week, so I thought since the sun was out, today I would do some yardworkContinue reading “Reminder not to do dumb stuff”
Family Dinner
Last night I had “family dinner” with my adult children and their partners. We have vowed to make this a more regular thing… I adore my girls. They are so much fun. We laugh so hard our stomachs hurt and tears run down our faces, and we threaten to pee our pants. The two olderContinue reading “Family Dinner”
Clarity (or momentarily absofuckinglutely crazy)
Last night before going to sleep I set an intention. I wanted communication or guidance from my guides while I slept (I did request it with a “please” so as to not sound demanding – LOL). I slept very deeply for 11 hours… I don’t remember any dreams… or anything at all. But I wokeContinue reading “Clarity (or momentarily absofuckinglutely crazy)”
Swearing, cooking and shining
I wanted to share a couple things from my email this morning before I head to the gym (yes, reading 400+ emails and working out this morning… all sorts of diversions to avoid sitting down to focus on taxes – LOL). The first – an email I get from authors of a cookbook. I loveContinue reading “Swearing, cooking and shining”
Unpacking
I have a lot to unpack here today (both mentally and physically). I have been out of town… it was a girl’s trip – it was fun… but I am also a person who requires alone time (probably too much of it) so I have a level of internal exhaustion. Plus being around a lotContinue reading “Unpacking”
Intimate strangers
In my real life, very few people know about my blog. It is a very private journey. I make a choice to make it public on the off chance something in it helps another person in some way, … but rarely invite someone from “real life” to have access. Being that totally open and vulnerableContinue reading “Intimate strangers”
Do you hear the music?
Philosopher Alan Watts explains that there is a danger in thinking life is a journey, some sort of a pilgrimage with a purpose at the end. Life is to be lived along the way… in the same way that music is to be enjoyed. If music were only about endings, composers would only write finales,Continue reading “Do you hear the music?”
Conflict Resolution
I decided to cancel today and tonight’s social commitments and go to Olympus Spa – or the “naked lady spa” as my daughters refer to it. I spent time sitting in heated water with other naked women, in silence. Spent time in the meditation room. And the steam room. And the salt room. Had someContinue reading “Conflict Resolution”
Deeply conflicted
I have an internal conflict today, so I have to spew it all out on virtual paper to sort it out. The situation is… I have had feelings for someone for quite a while. I get them under control, stifled… then they come back. It’s all in my own mind. I know that it is.Continue reading “Deeply conflicted”
Silly shenanigans ~
I am a little goofy today, so I apologize in advance… I had to drive all the way to Kitsap Peninsula North today to get a sign and a box off a listing (Yes folks, momma’s getting paid! Wahoo!). On the way I took some pictures I always want to take on this route, becauseContinue reading “Silly shenanigans ~”
Dazed and Confused
I had a very busy, but productive week. The current response operations are coming to a close, and I’m feeling pretty damn optimistic about work. Last night, after being busy for 14 hours straight, it occurred to me that although I have decided not to go looking for love – it can’t find me ifContinue reading “Dazed and Confused”
Uh… Okay
So… I feel a little self-conscious talking about what I’m going to share today… but I write for me – not for anyone who may read it… So, I guess I will go ahead and write about what happened today. It’s weird… I’m surprised, a tad bit shocked, maybe a bit confused. I had therapyContinue reading “Uh… Okay”
No Namaste Today
What a crazy week… 18-hour days of non-stop going. I’m not complaining… I have done this for years before, just not lately… When I’m not busy prospecting for new business and doing signings, I’m still on this disaster response and now also have a second one in progress. All day I have been trying toContinue reading “No Namaste Today”
Wild and Free
“All good things are wild and free.” – Henry David Thoreau I was thinking about this in the middle of the night. When I began writing my other blog, Undomesticated Bitch, I was searching for and wanting to get my “wild and free” self, back. Find my voice again… my authentic self… the one thatContinue reading “Wild and Free”
In my element
There was a 40-unit apartment fire over the weekend. I volunteer for a large non-profit humanitarian organization, and we provide disaster relief and assistance. I don’t talk about it often… I just do it. Today during therapy, my phone was blowing up because I am the recovery manager for the county and there was thisContinue reading “In my element”
Partnership thoughts…
I had to be downtown first thing this morning and had to stop for gas on the way… I am always surprised when the car needs gas. I know how ridiculous that sounds. After five years of being without a partner, I should be used to it by now. That is just one of theContinue reading “Partnership thoughts…”
Happy Valentine’s Week
The storm has passed… again. If you have been reading my blog for the last year, you know sometimes I have my bad days… or weeks. My apologies for whining, being grumpy and being no fun at all! It has been (and continues to be) a journey… death, loss, growth, life, and the shit showContinue reading “Happy Valentine’s Week”
Bad day
I am having one of those days… one of the ornery ones… I’m just feeling stubborn and a little pissed off with the world. I get this way sometimes… like here https://undomesticatedbitch.wordpress.com/2021/09/27/ornery-with-a-side-of-obstinate/ . Life just is not working out the way I have intended, and it is really pissing me off. I’m mad at people…Continue reading “Bad day”
Burning bridges…
I’m thinking about trust. I realize I approach everyone I meet with open arms and trust… until I don’t. I always give people the benefit of a doubt and in my child-like naïve way, I always expect the best of people… until they show me who they are. Then I’m disappointed in them. Quoting MarkContinue reading “Burning bridges…”
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