I have an internal conflict today, so I have to spew it all out on virtual paper to sort it out. The situation is… I have had feelings for someone for quite a while. I get them under control, stifled… then they come back. It’s all in my own mind. I know that it is.Continue reading “Deeply conflicted”
Category Archives: Sex
Dazed and Confused
I had a very busy, but productive week. The current response operations are coming to a close, and I’m feeling pretty damn optimistic about work. Last night, after being busy for 14 hours straight, it occurred to me that although I have decided not to go looking for love – it can’t find me ifContinue reading “Dazed and Confused”
Not one size fits all…
Dominant men. That’s what is on my mind. Firstly, as I have mentioned in this blog far too many times, it is hard to find one. While snowed in and alone over the holidays, I did manage to find a couple of “Doms” to talk to through dating sites. There are so many different expressionsContinue reading “Not one size fits all…”
Wrapping up the year…
I have been reflecting on all that has transpired the last year… particularly when it comes to personal growth – which is positive. I am starting therapy next week to make sure I continue to process stuff from the past fully and can move forward as the mentally healthiest version of myself possible and haveContinue reading “Wrapping up the year…”
Sex and Quizzes
I need to complain for a moment. Not everyone is a good fuck. Even fewer are a great fuck. I’m annoyed…I try to be discerning before even connecting with someone in person. My most recent sex date has been in the sex positive and kink communities for years…decades…so I even made him get tested forContinue reading “Sex and Quizzes”
My favorite conspiracy theory is everything is going to be okay…
I was disappointed not to hear from someone I care about with a text on Thanksgiving…I had asked him not to text me anymore so it’s my own fault. I just wanted him to anyway. But he doesn’t truly care about me so it’s just as well he didn’t. I’ve spent some time researching whyContinue reading “My favorite conspiracy theory is everything is going to be okay…”
Modern Love Update
Lunch was just lunch. I am showing restraint…I really don’t want to be involved with a married man – even if their marriage is open. I have realized there are men who only sign up for free dating sites or very cheap sites or say in their profile “I can’t see likes – you haveContinue reading “Modern Love Update”
My version of Modern Love
I have spent the last 2 ½ days in bed. I’m out of it now…but I want to go back. I showered and put on clothes…now I’m exhausted. I binge-watched things on Prime…including “Fleabag” and “Modern Love” … a movie called “Bound”…another movie called “The Voyeurs”. It occurs to me this morning my daughter probablyContinue reading “My version of Modern Love”
Sex and Ice Cream
These are two of my favorite things. I crave sex more often than ice cream but there is something very sensual about ice cream…and sometimes you just need to cuddle up with some. Of course, there is the “vanilla” joke…I am definitely a “mix in” girl…and I don’t like just one kind – I likeContinue reading “Sex and Ice Cream”
“GGG”
GGG stands for Good, Giving, and Game. More specifically: good in bed, giving equal time and equal pleasure, and game for anything—within reason. The term was coined by Dan Savage, gay author and sex advice columnist for the Stranger. I saw this “GGG” term in the dating profiles a couple of times, so I have googled itContinue reading ““GGG””
Orgasms
This morning I am thinking about orgasms. It’s kind of a touchy subject (no pun intended) and I suspect most people are kind of uncomfortable talking about it. It almost seems to me that the moments of orgasm are the closest you can get to the energy of the divine (blissful love energy that createsContinue reading “Orgasms”
Willful submission
Touching… skin to skin – soul to soul. Every cell… every particle… surrendering to you, just to please you. My body knew before my mind. I belong to you. Intoxicating dominance…We have no age but, in this moment, you are my Daddy… safe harbor for all of me…my protector…my supporter… my everything. I feel myselfContinue reading “Willful submission”
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