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Fibromyalgia. I can’t remember when I had my first symptom… how old I was. Young… too young for a problem like this. For decades doctors blamed it on various things, when I was 10 it was “weak muscles”, at 18 it was “hyper-extending joints and overstressed ligaments” … I’ve been tested for everything – includingContinue reading “Bad day…”

I did a lot of cooking this weekend. I shouldn’t have, since Thanksgiving is in just a few days… but I suppose I can freeze some. I cook when I need clarity. It calms me… boeuf bourguignon, French onion soup and coq au vin… all from scratch. I love French food. Butter and wine makeContinue reading “Time for another reboot”

You file memories away… thinking they are done and sorted, just tucked away with all the others. A song, a feeling, words spoken, any little thing can bring them back to the surface when you least expect it. I flipped on the Hallmark channel today (Christmas movies from Halloween to New Year’s). I saw someoneContinue reading “Ambushed by the Hallmark Channel”

Wild in the heartInvisible girlBare feet in red mudTake care of yourself and do your part Wide open fieldsSitting in the middle drawing treesThick forest walks avoiding the moonshinersSilently using the brush for shields Rain on a tin roof, hot lightning across the skyLightning bugs smashed on a finger like a glowing diamond ringRatty braid,Continue reading “poem”

I’m feeling confused. I’ve been getting to know someone new… Now granted, interpersonal relationships are not my forte… I show up – I just “be me” … I’m open, honest… have been known to over-share or not filter what I say – that is a flaw I have. This person I’m getting to know keepsContinue reading “Confused”

Work has been so busy… I am not complaining, just observing. Lots of 15-hour days. While in the car, instead of listening to music, I am in a listen to talking phase. I do this sometimes – I like to learn new things or look at things from a different perspective. Ted talks, random peopleContinue reading “Tip of the Iceberg”

385 days since I last saw his face…593 since the day we first met…again, if I was counting. Would I even recognize him on the street? … Not sure I can remember his face. The energy I remember… That I would recognize. I wish him the best. I really do. I hope he doesn’t spendContinue reading “It’s been 385 days…if I was counting”

It’s been a weird week… something feels a little off in the energy. Like the energy of everything this week. I can’t really put my finger on it… it feels like everything is in a transition of one kind or another. The energy is electric and heavy at the same time. The air is pollutedContinue reading “Is it just me?”

I deleted the original text that was in this post. Rather than put you through another post with me spinning out, I marked it private for a while until I felt better and could better express my thoughts in a different energy. Out there in the world, we interact with other people. Every interaction isContinue reading “Breadcrumbs are for ducks…”

I exist in a bubble. I know this –  I choose it… I only allow into it the people that I like, or things that bring me happiness or sustenance… I forget I do sometimes. We create our own reality, so I choose to focus on good things. I don’t watch the nightly news. IContinue reading “Bubbles and Clouds”

I feel energy. I always have. Sometimes it’s energy around me – like if I am near someone. Sometimes it’s the energy of people I have an energetic bond to. I realize this probably sounds a little nuts. All day today I have felt some energy that isn’t mine. I keep checking with myself… “IsContinue reading “Feeling a little too much”

I stumbled across the words below on line. I felt them deeply… tucking them in here for safe keeping so I don’t lose them. Unfortunately, I can’t give the author credit because it was signed “Unknown”. “There is nothing sexier than a man who knows how to traverse the juicy pathways of his own heart.Continue reading “Settling Up”

Prepare for TMI. I had the most amazing sex dream this morning. I’m still tingling all over hours later… so now, of course, I have to over-analyze it…LOL In the dream I was with someone I have had sex with before – but not for a year. Why? Why am I having such a deliciousContinue reading “Sex, lies and no video”

Today’s song… My way of eating has changed. I crave fresh – only fresh stuff… and olives and cheese… who wants to eat only fresh veggies for a meal? Me. I do. (Raising my hand – LOL) Here is my first attempt at “real” pizza. The crust is not right… close, but not right. ThisContinue reading “Lights will guide you home…”

This song is on my mind today for some reason… I’ve been up since 3am… seems to be my new normal – LOL. I get “messages from the Universe” in my email. While sorting the 4,000 emails waiting to be dealt with this morning, I read this one… (I’m sharing it because I liked it)Continue reading “…lost and choking on hello”

We left Greece and went back to France for a day… I am not homesick – which seems odd… the only thing I have longed for is my comfy bed. I have so thoroughly enjoyed this adventure. It makes no sense, but I feel more connected to myself and everyone else on the planet… IContinue reading “Adventure – Conclusion”

Greece is lovely. Significantly more touristy than I anticipated- but lovely. We were here for the annual volcano fireworks show… amazing and difficult to describe… they simulated lava! The food here is scrumptious. We grew weary of all the tourists and chartered a speed yacht to explore the island from the water side, and askedContinue reading “Adventure – Part Four”

I have a problem. I seem to fall in love with every place I go… Rome now has a piece of my heart as well. The people are warm and friendly and resilient. The food amazing. Italian coffee is true delight. I thought I might get one the other day “to go”  so I could drinkContinue reading “Adventure – Part Three”

I love Paris… I will be back. I even felt comfortable enough with the metro to go to the Eiffel Tower at midnight to watch the lights (most definitely a different vibe and more colorful people in the middle of the night though). There is still so much I haven’t seen! I hate to leave.Continue reading “Adventure – Part Two”

I am a very relaxed traveler… I just always assume it’s all part of the journey. I packed 15 dresses, 2 skirts, 6 tops, 3 swimsuits, and 7 pair of shoes… which may seem excessive, but my suitcase was only 35 pounds. I had a carry on with two changes of clothes(just in case), andContinue reading “Adventure – Part One”

Warning – I’m going to talk about some stuff that may make you uncomfortable… but remember this is my personal diary – so if you don’t like it, don’t read it. This is where I sometimes sort stuff out. It makes me feel better to type it out… sometimes it even helps me make senseContinue reading “Internal rambling…”

The last couple weeks people in my outer perimeter seem to be dying. It started with my nephew’s best friend, whom I had just seen a few weeks ago at my nephew’s “Congrats on being drafted by the Astros” party, dying in a motorcycle accident. He was only 22. It’s really sad. Then a friendContinue reading “Thoughts on a Tuesday”

I took today off unexpectedly… I had not planned to – it just worked out. It has turned out to be quite a dilemma. I’m tired… I should sleep – but I hate to waste the time. I had all kinds of imaginary plans for my day off… the whole day was at my disposal…Continue reading “Day off… kind of”

I have been working 65-70 hours a week. I haven’t done this in a minute… I spent decades working these kinds of hours but put an end to it (most of the time) a number of years ago. Here I am doing it again. I’m not complaining… it’s what I do when I’m “building” things…Continue reading “Lunch Break”

Is it completely unreasonable to be irritated by someone who insists everything should be in Times New Roman when Calibri is more my style? Ego… I dislike people so caught up in their own ego they spend all their time mentioning their value and failing to acknowledge anyone else’s. I swear I know how toContinue reading “Thinking out loud…”

Big changes are coming…I’m restructuring every little thing in my world… I will have much to share when I’m done. I just had to take a moment to share my current music interest (loving Rosenfeld’s sexy vibe) … and remind anyone who stops by to take a leap of faith in life. You don’t usuallyContinue reading “Peek into my world”

It’s Friday morning… it’s been a busy week. Today is my birthday. I have not been blogging much. I guess I have just been busy… happy… momentarily less reflective and needing to share. I did go to a workshop in downtown Seattle last weekend that I thought about sharing about… I convinced my friend SandyContinue reading “Happy Friday”

Reminder … all we have is now. I am out of town for the holiday weekend. I have been out of town a lot lately… it’s nice to have a change of scenery. It also gives me space to rethink my life a bit… you know different energy is good sometimes for a reboot. I’mContinue reading “Now”

I have made some choices in the last week… One of which is to go to Europe… Today I began planning out my trip 🙂 I will be going to France, Italy and Greece in a couple months. Next Spring I will go to Ireland, Scotland, England and Denmark. I am back to the gymContinue reading “New Chapter”