Just another day on this spinning ball

I am sick today. I admit it… I am actually “sick”, not just allergies. Prior to the pandemic, I got sick maybe once a year. One big inconvenient cold… once a year. During the pandemic, everyone was on high alert – every sneeze, every sniffle, came with the question “Is it COVID?”. Since we wereContinue reading “Just another day on this spinning ball”

Hi. My name is Wayward Yoga Girl.

I’ve been called out on something… so time to dive deep again. I keep thinking I’m done working on this, but here we go again. I guess becoming “healthy” or “healed” may be an on-going process… there are so many layers to the onion. The issue again is abandonment. I ask myself “Why would IContinue reading “Hi. My name is Wayward Yoga Girl.”

Clarity (or momentarily absofuckinglutely crazy)

Last night before going to sleep I set an intention. I wanted communication or guidance from my guides while I slept (I did request it with a “please” so as to not sound demanding – LOL). I slept very deeply for 11 hours… I don’t remember any dreams… or anything at all. But I wokeContinue reading “Clarity (or momentarily absofuckinglutely crazy)”

Swearing, cooking and shining

I wanted to share a couple things from my email this morning before I head to the gym (yes, reading 400+ emails and working out this morning… all sorts of diversions to avoid sitting down to focus on taxes – LOL). The first – an email I get from authors of a cookbook. I loveContinue reading “Swearing, cooking and shining”

Dazed and Confused

I had a very busy, but productive week. The current response operations are coming to a close, and I’m feeling pretty damn optimistic about work. Last night, after being busy for 14 hours straight, it occurred to me that although I have decided not to go looking for love – it can’t find me ifContinue reading “Dazed and Confused”

Relationships

Someone said something to me a little while back that keeps coming back to haunt me. They basically indicated being single is better than being in a committed relationship because you won’t ever feel stuck waking up next to someone you don’t like anymore. This caught me off guard. I wanted to shout, “You areContinue reading “Relationships”

January update

You can’t keep picking apples off a tree hoping to find a peach. You can’t teach a grown man how to be positively dominant or a DD if he isn’t wired that way. You would think that I am old enough to know these things. The comet came back around again…once again, I swear thisContinue reading “January update”

A not hot mess

I am a fucking disaster… I should wrap my entire house, my car and myself with caution tape so people will be warned to stay away. I didn’t sleep well again… so I’m extra cranky. Just read someone else’s blog today… this one is covered in caution tape warning you to stay away. Of course,Continue reading “A not hot mess”

Prince Charming… you are late

I’m awake at 4am… It’s been a minute since I was awake in the middle the night like this… I think Disney did not contribute to my overall wellness as a female. Growing up with the “Wonderful World of Disney” movies made me think there would someday be a prince (or “my” prince) coming alongContinue reading “Prince Charming… you are late”

Christmas is over

I survived Christmas. Robert loved Christmas. He decorated like crazy…every inch of the house inside and out. Christmas movies every day from Thanksgiving to New Years. When I was a kid, Christmas was unpredictable and often a disappointment. Some years I would come home from school or wake up in the morning to find theContinue reading “Christmas is over”

Shift in the Matrix

I’m going to veer off the normal path today…try to put judgement aside and move forward with an open mind. We as a planet are experiencing a mass “awakening” spiritually. Our entire world is having a shift in consciousness. Don’t get me wrong…there are still plenty who are “asleep”, but right now there are moreContinue reading “Shift in the Matrix”

Sex and Quizzes

I need to complain for a moment. Not everyone is a good fuck. Even fewer are a great fuck. I’m annoyed…I try to be discerning before even connecting with someone in person. My most recent sex date has been in the sex positive and kink communities for years…decades…so I even made him get tested forContinue reading “Sex and Quizzes”

My favorite conspiracy theory is everything is going to be okay…

I was disappointed not to hear from someone I care about with a text on Thanksgiving…I had asked him not to text me anymore so it’s my own fault. I just wanted him to anyway. But he doesn’t truly care about me so it’s just as well he didn’t. I’ve spent some time researching whyContinue reading “My favorite conspiracy theory is everything is going to be okay…”

Comet dust and lust…

A “nova”” when it comes to dating, is when you meet someone and there is an initial attraction…the two of you shine brightly for a moment, then fade away and fizzle out quickly (usually a one night thing)…it was never meant to be anything more and you both instinctively know it. A “comet” in datingContinue reading “Comet dust and lust…”

Masculine energy

I have noticed this year, while out in the dating wild… a shift in men. Maybe it has been there for a long time, but I was unaware because I wasn’t out there meeting them. I have blogged about this before…but I’m thinking about it again. Men, or many of them it seems, have beenContinue reading “Masculine energy”

~It’s all good~

I’m done wallowing and creating melancholy doodles. Granted – those things have purpose and sometimes you have to take some time and “feel” your feelings and where you “are” at a given moment. I really hate that chaotic, disconnected, fragmented feeling of being out of alignment. Meditation cures everything… and doing the energy work IContinue reading “~It’s all good~”

Attachment & Updated Dating Lexicon

Looking for love or connection and coming up empty is never a good feeling. When you feel attraction for someone, sometimes it is based on unhealthy things. What I mean is…say your childhood created some unconscious ideas about what a relationship or partner is supposed to look like or feel like (this happens with everyoneContinue reading “Attachment & Updated Dating Lexicon”

Beautiful chaos~

I had a really enlightening day. I need to “Kerouac” it out…so hang in there with my stream of consciousness rambling please or move on to better reading if you’d like. I have realized that ever since I really let go of the grief I was carrying for years over the death of my partner,Continue reading “Beautiful chaos~”

The one about friends~

Today I am thinking about friendship. There are levels of friendship…from the work peer you would come to the aid of, to someone you have known for a long time and have a shared history with, to someone you would trust with your life. I have once had the privilege of being in love andContinue reading “The one about friends~”

Trust and Boundaries

Today I am thinking about trust and boundaries. Specifically, self-trust and healthy personal boundaries. I was told by someone once a long time ago that I do not have healthy boundaries and, in many instances, have no boundaries. I believed them. This was partially true at the time, but I realize it became a storyContinue reading “Trust and Boundaries”

Connection, Intimacy and Art

My thoughts today… I think all humans need to feel connection with other people. We find things in common to share with people to feel “connected”. I think we crave – at a soul level – really deep connection, but most people keep things on a pretty superficial level. Intimacy is a level of connection.Continue reading “Connection, Intimacy and Art”