A while back I announced (in my blog and to the Universe in general) that if something isn’t a “Fuck Yes!” then it’s a “No”. I trust that everything is always working out for me if I just flow with the energy… Admittedly, I did forget that for a while…. Lots of things in lifeContinue reading “Take a Leap”
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Shine like the sun
Last week I was reading a blog that I follow. The author went through a shocking breakup around Christmas that really left her devasted. I am watching the rise and fall of her recovery and the process of her finding herself again. It totally caught her off guard – which breaks my heart. I empathizeContinue reading “Shine like the sun”
In the wild…
I am no longer on any of the dating apps. If you have been reading this blog for a while, you know I have been on and off them the last year to year and a half. I know they work for some people, and almost did for me with a couple of people –Continue reading “In the wild…”
Just another day on this spinning ball
I am sick today. I admit it… I am actually “sick”, not just allergies. Prior to the pandemic, I got sick maybe once a year. One big inconvenient cold… once a year. During the pandemic, everyone was on high alert – every sneeze, every sniffle, came with the question “Is it COVID?”. Since we wereContinue reading “Just another day on this spinning ball”
Hi. My name is Wayward Yoga Girl.
I’ve been called out on something… so time to dive deep again. I keep thinking I’m done working on this, but here we go again. I guess becoming “healthy” or “healed” may be an on-going process… there are so many layers to the onion. The issue again is abandonment. I ask myself “Why would IContinue reading “Hi. My name is Wayward Yoga Girl.”
Clarity (or momentarily absofuckinglutely crazy)
Last night before going to sleep I set an intention. I wanted communication or guidance from my guides while I slept (I did request it with a “please” so as to not sound demanding – LOL). I slept very deeply for 11 hours… I don’t remember any dreams… or anything at all. But I wokeContinue reading “Clarity (or momentarily absofuckinglutely crazy)”
Silly shenanigans ~
I am a little goofy today, so I apologize in advance… I had to drive all the way to Kitsap Peninsula North today to get a sign and a box off a listing (Yes folks, momma’s getting paid! Wahoo!). On the way I took some pictures I always want to take on this route, becauseContinue reading “Silly shenanigans ~”
Dazed and Confused
I had a very busy, but productive week. The current response operations are coming to a close, and I’m feeling pretty damn optimistic about work. Last night, after being busy for 14 hours straight, it occurred to me that although I have decided not to go looking for love – it can’t find me ifContinue reading “Dazed and Confused”
Wild and Free
“All good things are wild and free.” – Henry David Thoreau I was thinking about this in the middle of the night. When I began writing my other blog, Undomesticated Bitch, I was searching for and wanting to get my “wild and free” self, back. Find my voice again… my authentic self… the one thatContinue reading “Wild and Free”
Partnership thoughts…
I had to be downtown first thing this morning and had to stop for gas on the way… I am always surprised when the car needs gas. I know how ridiculous that sounds. After five years of being without a partner, I should be used to it by now. That is just one of theContinue reading “Partnership thoughts…”
Burning bridges…
I’m thinking about trust. I realize I approach everyone I meet with open arms and trust… until I don’t. I always give people the benefit of a doubt and in my child-like naïve way, I always expect the best of people… until they show me who they are. Then I’m disappointed in them. Quoting MarkContinue reading “Burning bridges…”
Aloneness
I have always been “alone” in many regards. When I was a kid, I was alone a lot. My hippie parents would disappear for days, and I wouldn’t know where they were or when they were coming back. The other kids I knew from school I couldn’t relate to because they had a different existenceContinue reading “Aloneness”
Relationships
Someone said something to me a little while back that keeps coming back to haunt me. They basically indicated being single is better than being in a committed relationship because you won’t ever feel stuck waking up next to someone you don’t like anymore. This caught me off guard. I wanted to shout, “You areContinue reading “Relationships”
January update
You can’t keep picking apples off a tree hoping to find a peach. You can’t teach a grown man how to be positively dominant or a DD if he isn’t wired that way. You would think that I am old enough to know these things. The comet came back around again…once again, I swear thisContinue reading “January update”
A not hot mess
I am a fucking disaster… I should wrap my entire house, my car and myself with caution tape so people will be warned to stay away. I didn’t sleep well again… so I’m extra cranky. Just read someone else’s blog today… this one is covered in caution tape warning you to stay away. Of course,Continue reading “A not hot mess”
Prince Charming… you are late
I’m awake at 4am… It’s been a minute since I was awake in the middle the night like this… I think Disney did not contribute to my overall wellness as a female. Growing up with the “Wonderful World of Disney” movies made me think there would someday be a prince (or “my” prince) coming alongContinue reading “Prince Charming… you are late”
Not one size fits all…
Dominant men. That’s what is on my mind. Firstly, as I have mentioned in this blog far too many times, it is hard to find one. While snowed in and alone over the holidays, I did manage to find a couple of “Doms” to talk to through dating sites. There are so many different expressionsContinue reading “Not one size fits all…”
Another snow day
I am still snowed in… I hadn’t planned to be snowed in. I borrowed a shovel and unburied my driveway and walkway today. I remember we used to have a snow shovel. I think I gave it away during a move. I distinctly remember saying “I will not need this. If it snows, I willContinue reading “Another snow day”
Fuck fear
I woke up this morning thinking about fear. Just before waking up, I was having a dream. I don’t remember the details… all I remember is the feeling of fear in the pit of my stomach. I was momentarily confused, thinking “what is this familiar feeling?” I said to whomever was in my dream, “OhContinue reading “Fuck fear”
… still Thursday
Okay I have been “productive” enough for today. I showered and got dressed. In my “lumberjack” outfit again… that’s what my date called it the other night… I kind of took a little bit of offense. I wear black all the time. I have 36 pair of black leggings, half dozen black slacks, black jeans,Continue reading “… still Thursday”
Wrapping up the year…
I have been reflecting on all that has transpired the last year… particularly when it comes to personal growth – which is positive. I am starting therapy next week to make sure I continue to process stuff from the past fully and can move forward as the mentally healthiest version of myself possible and haveContinue reading “Wrapping up the year…”
Prepping…
I have finally found a therapist…they seem to check all the boxes for what I might consider to be a smart and well-rounded person who might be able to work with me. They even have at least a cursory understanding of meta-physical things and are not religious (I do not need to be saved orContinue reading “Prepping…”
Untitled
Mr. Rogers did not adequately prepare me for the people in my neighborhood. Maybe he lived in a better one than I do. I only watched the show when I was 5 and 6 – maybe he covered more later, and I missed it. It used to make me so sad when he took hisContinue reading “Untitled”
Sex and Quizzes
I need to complain for a moment. Not everyone is a good fuck. Even fewer are a great fuck. I’m annoyed…I try to be discerning before even connecting with someone in person. My most recent sex date has been in the sex positive and kink communities for years…decades…so I even made him get tested forContinue reading “Sex and Quizzes”
My favorite conspiracy theory is everything is going to be okay…
I was disappointed not to hear from someone I care about with a text on Thanksgiving…I had asked him not to text me anymore so it’s my own fault. I just wanted him to anyway. But he doesn’t truly care about me so it’s just as well he didn’t. I’ve spent some time researching whyContinue reading “My favorite conspiracy theory is everything is going to be okay…”
Modern Love Update
Lunch was just lunch. I am showing restraint…I really don’t want to be involved with a married man – even if their marriage is open. I have realized there are men who only sign up for free dating sites or very cheap sites or say in their profile “I can’t see likes – you haveContinue reading “Modern Love Update”
My version of Modern Love
I have spent the last 2 ½ days in bed. I’m out of it now…but I want to go back. I showered and put on clothes…now I’m exhausted. I binge-watched things on Prime…including “Fleabag” and “Modern Love” … a movie called “Bound”…another movie called “The Voyeurs”. It occurs to me this morning my daughter probablyContinue reading “My version of Modern Love”
Comet dust and lust…
A “nova”” when it comes to dating, is when you meet someone and there is an initial attraction…the two of you shine brightly for a moment, then fade away and fizzle out quickly (usually a one night thing)…it was never meant to be anything more and you both instinctively know it. A “comet” in datingContinue reading “Comet dust and lust…”
Masculine energy
I have noticed this year, while out in the dating wild… a shift in men. Maybe it has been there for a long time, but I was unaware because I wasn’t out there meeting them. I have blogged about this before…but I’m thinking about it again. Men, or many of them it seems, have beenContinue reading “Masculine energy”
~It’s all good~
I’m done wallowing and creating melancholy doodles. Granted – those things have purpose and sometimes you have to take some time and “feel” your feelings and where you “are” at a given moment. I really hate that chaotic, disconnected, fragmented feeling of being out of alignment. Meditation cures everything… and doing the energy work IContinue reading “~It’s all good~”
a little bit of everything... 